Monday, July 5, 2010


I wish I had some pretty red, white, and blue firecracker photos to post, but I don't.
I didn't even realize yesterday was the 4th of July until around noon.

Oh well, there's always next year.

I know I have a lot of internet catching up to do, but for now I'm typing with one hand, in my bed, with such slow internet connection that it just ain't gonna happen today.

I don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow. Philip leaves for work... for a month. 
He's been helping a lot with Adeline and diapers, and fixing my food, medicine, and water, and frankly I think I might die without him here to help.

Okay, I won't die
but I'll be even more bummed. 

Hyperemesis Gravidarum
I. hate. you.
This will be my last pregnancy. 
I wanted more kids, but I ain't doin this again, that's for sure.

I'm in such a big guilt bubble already about my lack of involvement with the daughter I already have. 
I've been sick for just 2 weeks now, and I know I'll likely be like this for at least 6 more months if it's the same as the first go round.
Overall she's doing alright with the recent adjustments. She doesn't quite understand why I won't get up off of the couch, and I'll admit that it is slightly funny to watch stick out her tongue and say "BLAAHHH" while I'm throwing up. 
She's learning to be more independent, which is sweet and sad at the same time. 
I just miss being a good mom. The couch is already old.


  1. A girl friend of mine had this when she was pregnant - she ended up with a zofran pump and she was still very very sick.

    Our church Mom's group got together and took shifts at her house, helping with dishes/food/laundry and her 2 year old while her husband was at work.

    I hope you can get some help while your hubby is away - wish I lived closer!

    Good luck and I will keep you in my prayers!!!

  2. oh no... sorry you're so sick!! i've done pretty well up until the past 2 days. actually started throwing up... and MAJOR heartburn. i'm hoping this passes soon because i'm 10 wks... and i was hoping it'd be all better by at least 12!! crossing my fingers!

    i can't imagine being sick for another 6 months... i hope you get better and don't have to deal with that!!!

  3. Awwww darn that being sick. :(
    I hope it's better this time around. I really do.

  4. Oh Miss LoveLove,

    You are still a wonderful mother. Even though you feel like you're dying. Even though you can barely move. Your daughter still loves you, and ten years from now, your throwing up for 9 months straight won't be anywhere to be found in her memory.

    Hang in there Mama. Don't let the guilt get to you. Take care of yourself the way you have been.

    I think a lot of us wish we lived closer, to help you out while your husband is away at work. I can't imagine it will be easy. :(

  5. That is one of the reasons I SO don't miss being pregnant. I complain when I have the two kids alone when my hubby goes away for a week. For a month and I'd be crying...and that's without being preggie. Hang in there Momma, I'm sure it will all work out...and seriously, don't even worry about the mess!

  6. Ugh. I wish I could give you a hand. So sorry you feel so sick!! :(

  7. I am so sorry!! :*( That totally sucks...I really hope you start feeling better soon!!

  8. Tag, you're it. (only if you feel up to it!)

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  10. Hello there, I am new to your blog but I like what I've seen here. Your blog header is so cute and personal-I like headers like that.

  11. Just realized it's been a while since I've seen anything from you. Hope all is well. :)

  12. I know it's a day early... but I wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I really hope you're feeling better... although the lack of posts doesn't leave much to the imagination other than your continuing to be sick!

    Saying special prayers that you'll be feeling better soon!!!

  13. heya! how are you holding up? miss your posts :(

  14. Aww :(
    It's worth it in the end, right?
    Big hugs!!!

  15. I keep checking back to see if you've updated on how you're feeling!

    Praying that you are back to normal soon!!! I bought some ginger gum when I was dealing with nausea and it really helped (didn't taste bad either).... although I was not nearly as sick as you!

    I know we don't really know each other... but if we lived close... I'd totally come over to help you out!!