Flashback Friday

Exactly 2 years ago today my entire life changed.

My husband left for work around 6:30am, and as soon as I heard his truck start I hopped out of bed and took a pregnancy test I just knew I was taking too early.

We decided we wanted a baby and I got off my birth control pills at the beginning of May.

This was the first pregnancy test I'd be taking, and I was convinced I was wasting my time since my period wasn't even due for a week.

"Are you kidding me?" I remember saying that out loud.

Then I paced my bedroom for who knows how long nearly hyperventilating.

I thought I would be happy once we got pregnant, but I was instantly scared to death.

I knew I couldn't tell Philip over the phone while he was at work, so I went shopping for little baby things to replace my table centerpiece for dinner that night.

So that was what was on the center of the table when he came home and sat down for dinner. He's such a guy because he didn't even notice at first. I actually had to ask him if he noticed anything different, which he immediately and slightly worriedly looked at his food. Once he saw the pregnancy test and the little baby socks I'll never forget what my daddy to be husband said first.

"Aw man that means we don't get to do it all the time anymore."

that was immediately followed by:

"It's a girl."

Then he ate his dinner.

and that was that.

Pregnancy sucked for me.

In fact it still terrifies me.

I had:

-hyperemesis gravidarum

-placental tearing

-depression

and frequent dehydration

Those were most definitely the most difficult 10 months of my entire life.

and people wondered why I was so eager to get induced at 40 weeks on my due date.

So for the fun of my flashback, here's some preggo pictures of me and my little Squigaline.

It was all very worth it though. :)

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